Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
moving ahead
if you've ever heard of KT Tunstall's "Other Side of the World" that's the mood I'm feeling right now. The world is a giant moving at the speed of light - twirling like a tornado. I'm the small speckle fighting to survive in the middle. I'm trying to get to the other side, the other side of the world.
Our lives are hard and everyday, we make excuses to make it easier - to forget a bit of hardship just to endure the days a little longer. Though my plan seems to have gained a positive light, it's still a long way to go. This year I will be working a full time job, night classes every night, and weekend shifts and the restaurant. Nonstop until I reach my destination -- success.
You know what makes me such a miserly person? I always have high expectations of myself as well as the same standards for everyone else around me. Perhaps I also care too much about how you feel before myself. The tornado of twirling lights are going faster and the pull of the wind is too strong. I'm still standing but for how much longer?
Our lives are hard and everyday, we make excuses to make it easier - to forget a bit of hardship just to endure the days a little longer. Though my plan seems to have gained a positive light, it's still a long way to go. This year I will be working a full time job, night classes every night, and weekend shifts and the restaurant. Nonstop until I reach my destination -- success.
You know what makes me such a miserly person? I always have high expectations of myself as well as the same standards for everyone else around me. Perhaps I also care too much about how you feel before myself. The tornado of twirling lights are going faster and the pull of the wind is too strong. I'm still standing but for how much longer?
Monday, July 12, 2010
i want to be cultured.
When I see international students walking all over the city, the envy comes out of me. If I was an international student, my parents would likely have loads of money, a nice house, and I'd have traveled the world before puberty hit. All I know is Boston and Seoul. Seoul is a place I directed my empty but spongy mind to go during a period of incredible stress/confusion. I had planned the trip months in advance--knowing I will be alone and it will be scary. I didn't know anyone nor spoke the language. Not only was I dressed like an American but I stood out in height amongst Korean women. The one that sticks out of the crowd will always find it difficult to blend in. Though I can say my adventure was fun and rewarding, I also learned that being cultured is a difficult thing. I envy international students who at least have a worldly foundation - to meet people from all over the world, to see any Wonder of the World.
Boston is a small city, where every Asian knows each other. I would love to live in a community like Jamaica Plain where everyone knows one another and walks their dogs together. Though given the chance, I would love to see California. I'd travel to Bora Bora, Thailand, Italy, Argentina, Brazil, Japan, and definitely go back to South Korea.
To see the world is a privilege. It is now a privilege but I am striving to make it my job. Hopefully my degree in public affairs will help me. I'm always dreaming of a change of scenery...
When I see international students walking all over the city, the envy comes out of me. If I was an international student, my parents would likely have loads of money, a nice house, and I'd have traveled the world before puberty hit. All I know is Boston and Seoul. Seoul is a place I directed my empty but spongy mind to go during a period of incredible stress/confusion. I had planned the trip months in advance--knowing I will be alone and it will be scary. I didn't know anyone nor spoke the language. Not only was I dressed like an American but I stood out in height amongst Korean women. The one that sticks out of the crowd will always find it difficult to blend in. Though I can say my adventure was fun and rewarding, I also learned that being cultured is a difficult thing. I envy international students who at least have a worldly foundation - to meet people from all over the world, to see any Wonder of the World.
Boston is a small city, where every Asian knows each other. I would love to live in a community like Jamaica Plain where everyone knows one another and walks their dogs together. Though given the chance, I would love to see California. I'd travel to Bora Bora, Thailand, Italy, Argentina, Brazil, Japan, and definitely go back to South Korea.
To see the world is a privilege. It is now a privilege but I am striving to make it my job. Hopefully my degree in public affairs will help me. I'm always dreaming of a change of scenery...
Monday, June 21, 2010
rainbows and butterflies
staying positive is harder than I thought. I rapped a ruler onto my forearm reminding myself to think positively, to follow my heart, and to embrace things. Earlier this year, I have found that the people around me tend to find my pessimism to be irritating and a Debbie-Downer. I hate always being the bearer of anything bad and so, decided to try my best to think with smileys and rainbows. HAH HAH perhaps the latter was a tad condescending. I apologize.
why is it always easier to pick out the things that don't make you happy? Most of my life, I've always thought that dreams always have consequences and that with good luck comes bad luck very soon. I've been disappointed much throughout my life and when I think back about my childhood, I'm reminded of how much of my parents' fighting affected my behavior as an adult. My mom used to constantly talk about divorcing my father and how terrible my brother is and wishes she never birthed him. I was still learning my division then.
My friends get annoyed if I try to make light of fights and arguments. The tactic I've learned is making a joke of it. Make them laugh, make them feel silly for fighting. Though it doesn't always work out, at least the pair can walk away for a while or ease up the tension.
I can't sleep again tonight and got on my laptop to look up the reasons for easy bruising. It's a vitamin deficiency amongst a list of scary factors. If you're deficient in vitamins: B12, C, K, or Folic Acid, you're bound to bruise like ripe Asian pears in Chinatown markets.
I feel my brain numbing and losing focus on this entry. It's too hot to sleep and I am anxious to ride my new bike all around the neighborhood tomorrow!
Wow, this sucks. I'm hungry...
I would LOVE: sake maki, pan-fried satay chicken udon, green beans, garlic sauteed broccoli rabe, Montreal's chocolate croissants, steak and cheese sub, salt and pepper chicken wings, chicken tikka masala with aloo naan, giant red grapes, samgyupsal, fish head/tofu/cilantro soup, roasted octopus, molten chocolate cake with coffee gelato on the side, egg and spam on ramen, ice cold coffee, soft almond pretzel, juicy burger with cheddar/bacon/avocado/tomato/lettuce, grilled turkey sandwich with gruyere/herbed mayo/spinach, boiled lobster, fried mushrooms, sauteed scallops, sauteed button mushrooms, garlic mashed potatoes....
okay, time to make me a snack!
why is it always easier to pick out the things that don't make you happy? Most of my life, I've always thought that dreams always have consequences and that with good luck comes bad luck very soon. I've been disappointed much throughout my life and when I think back about my childhood, I'm reminded of how much of my parents' fighting affected my behavior as an adult. My mom used to constantly talk about divorcing my father and how terrible my brother is and wishes she never birthed him. I was still learning my division then.
My friends get annoyed if I try to make light of fights and arguments. The tactic I've learned is making a joke of it. Make them laugh, make them feel silly for fighting. Though it doesn't always work out, at least the pair can walk away for a while or ease up the tension.
I can't sleep again tonight and got on my laptop to look up the reasons for easy bruising. It's a vitamin deficiency amongst a list of scary factors. If you're deficient in vitamins: B12, C, K, or Folic Acid, you're bound to bruise like ripe Asian pears in Chinatown markets.
I feel my brain numbing and losing focus on this entry. It's too hot to sleep and I am anxious to ride my new bike all around the neighborhood tomorrow!
Wow, this sucks. I'm hungry...
I would LOVE: sake maki, pan-fried satay chicken udon, green beans, garlic sauteed broccoli rabe, Montreal's chocolate croissants, steak and cheese sub, salt and pepper chicken wings, chicken tikka masala with aloo naan, giant red grapes, samgyupsal, fish head/tofu/cilantro soup, roasted octopus, molten chocolate cake with coffee gelato on the side, egg and spam on ramen, ice cold coffee, soft almond pretzel, juicy burger with cheddar/bacon/avocado/tomato/lettuce, grilled turkey sandwich with gruyere/herbed mayo/spinach, boiled lobster, fried mushrooms, sauteed scallops, sauteed button mushrooms, garlic mashed potatoes....
okay, time to make me a snack!
Monday, June 7, 2010
Look-Alikes
Ray Allen: Professional Basketball Star--VS--Moses Chan: Famous Hong Kong Movie Star
Pau Gasol: Professional Basketball Star--VS--Big Bird: National Television Icon
Friday, June 4, 2010
Dancing on Ice Land
Inspired By Iceland - Attempting to boost tourism after the volcanic eruption, Icelanders have come up with this website to promote their country.
Awesome video to kick-start my rainy Friday afternoon. I'll probably end up dancing like the fisherman at work today...HA HA HA!
Monday, May 31, 2010
video art
I like to share new works that might put you in a different lens. I hope these drive your motivation, joy, or your attention to stop and notice the simpler things with a different perspective.
DEADLINE post-it stop motion
for more on the article: Nine Fish With "Hands" Found To Be New Species
Her Morning Elegance/Oren Lavie
DEADLINE post-it stop motion
New species of fish: with hand-like fins!!!
for more on the article: Nine Fish With "Hands" Found To Be New Species
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